Feels Like TODAY

Well Charley has now challenged us to blog our most embaressing moment. This will make most of you feel a bit sorry for me...but you will laugh a bit too.

The most embarassing time I can think of was not a public embaressment(praise God!), but a rather intamate embaressment....

I became pregnant in the year 2004. This was a time of big change in both my and my husbands lives. I was graduating from cometology school, embarking on a new carrer, haveing huge changes to my emotional state, and to my body. Times were a bit crazy that year! Jeremy and I went through alot of growth in our marrige through my pregnacy. We learned to be honest, patient, and laugh with one and other.

The day I went into labor I was already schedueled to be at the hospital to be induced. We got up got dressed and drove an hour to the hospital. This was the last day of our lives "alone". I so vividly rember staring out the car window,"It feels like today" by Racal flats played on the radio. I was overcome with fear and anxious feelings. Today I was going to be a mom! When we arrived at the hospital I was in labor (I was not aware of it...but they assured my i was). 23.5 hours later I was still in labor and still not a mom. (this in itself is another embarassing story...for another day and a more private venue) It was time for the emergency c-section. I was so afraid, so tired, and so READY! My husband did not get to go along for the procedure, but about an hour later he met our beautiful daughter for the first time...this is all very fuzzy for me because morphine will do crazy things to your head....

We had to stay in the hospital for a week because of the surgery. The first night was rough. I had a hole cut in me and the nurse came in and wanted me to stand up..."What!!!! My Guts are gonna fall out.", I thought..I could read that look on Jeremys face too! But I did as she asked. You know what it wasn't so bad....or so i thought...Then I looked at Jeremy's face. (I think he thought that i would have that baby and slink right back into my jeans!) I was too tired to care. About two days later I was able to shower on my own and get a really good look at my body. Mind you I was very unprepared for what it was going to look like as well( In the back of my mind I thought I would slink back into those jeans too!) I got in the shower and was a bit horrified. I had staples in my stomach, I was bruised and flabby! What happend. I came out of the shower and needed help getting dressed. I felt so embaressed of my body at that moment. I didn't want my husband to see me that way...but I needed help, It was hard to move alot and put my undergarments on much less some sweat pants. So I bit the bullet and walked out of the bathroom into the hospital room we were staying in. He looked and me eyes very wide and said.."You look like Tim Allan from the Santa Clase", imagine my horror and utter embarassement at this comment. But he was right. I had what looked like me regualr body with the prostetic looking stomach hanging in the front. I couldn't help but look down and laugh. "Ho Ho Ho", I said.

Since then my Santa Clause belly has gone away wich we are both very greatful for. But I will miss being able to talk to the elves...lol.

I look back at that moment and I see that that wasn't my husband trying to put me down, but my husband trying to make me laugh. He doen't always say the right thing!